It has been about a month since I did my final livestream video of MALP and I still miss it. Entertaining people and changing everyones lives was something I loved so much. Now it has been about a month since then and I am here to talk about how I was right after and how I am now. For those who do not know MALP stands for Mom Approved Let's Plays. It was a Family Friendly Gaming YouTube channel I had for over 2 years and made almost 600 videos for. With so many memories it is tough to not miss it, but don't worry this is not all sad. So let's talk about my feelings then and now.
At the end of the livestream I took off my headphones, pushed the microphone away, and got up and walked off camera. Once that was done and I waiting a few seconds I stopped the livestream. Man was that a sad feeling. I know what you might be thinking. Why would you stop if it made you happy? Well the truth is that the channel and community was not growing or interacting and I did not have the time to dedicate to the channel since money was hardly coming in from the channel. Having a small YouTube channel and being an adult means you need a real job to pay those bills.
Over the next few days I was pretty sad. I would almost even say depressed. Just sorta going through the day and acting all sad. Almost even cried some days in bed. It was very difficult, but I knew that if I could pull off making the game I would be very happy even if it was just a tiny tiny success. So a week or two went by and I worked on the game. At first I came across lots of issues and eventually even took an online course to help me learn some things. So now let's fast forward to the present.
It has been about a month since that final livestream. There is still lots of times I think about MALP and I am proud of it and glad it is still there to make people happy and watch my videos. But I am working very hard to move on and focus on the game I am making. While the game brings new stress I am trying very hard to mix the complicated stuff that I don't enjoy as much with some fun stuff too. So I'm slowly getting there, but it is still a bit tough for me to talk about MALP without being sad.
So now comes the BIG QUESTION that some of you may be wondering. Will I ever bring back MALP? Is it possible? Well first off anything is possible. And now to answer that for real. After much thought and much consideration. And of course a lot of time to think about it. I believe that if my creative career and Gummy Studios becomes successful enough for me to quit my job and pay my bills with that money then there is a very good chance that MALP may return again one day. Thank you so much for reading this post. I'll talk to you again in the next post. BYYEE BBBBYYYYYEEEEE!